This is gonna be large post bc I thought I need to mention some details. 4chab doesn't let me post on /adv/ bc ip is blocked due to some reason.
I need your help anon, I feel really desperate. There's a fucking chaos in my head, so please have patience to read this. Thank you in advance.
Basically there are a couple of problems that severely corrupt my life.
1. Daydreaming to me is like a fucking addiction, a painkiller, a short way to get out of reality. I dream of the past, how I could have done things the other way and avoid mistakes and succeed. Everytime I listen to music, I start daydreaming, for example, imagines myself on stage performing, singing a song, and there are friends and people I know, especially girls looking at me and being amazed of how cool i am. If I look at some girls IG page, I start dreaming of how I meet her, flirt with her, go on a date with her etc. When I watch sports, I imagine myself as one of those players, start to imitate celebration of scoring a goal, you know, running, waving hands, making all these silly signs etc.
This dirty habit is glued to the core of my mind, and I struggle to cope with it.
2. Back when I studied at university, I had a crush. This was the first time I fell in love so hard since primary school. We talked on the internet sometimes but I never managed to make next steps. Ultimately, after 7 months of being sort of friends I told her that I love her. The she dumped me. First three days after that I was fine, then anxiety hit me like for a month. I felt really depressed, I thought only about her. After that I started to low-key hating her for dumping me. The key moment is I struggled to love any other girl ever since bc each time a possible gf emerged I compared her to my crush. So it seems to me I'm can't love a girl as much as I loved my crush.
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>>60472
Sounds like role confusion and alot of anxiety. Try taking a break from 2ch, or maybe the internet in general.
There must be some offline hobby you enjoy.
>>60744
>taking a break from 2ch
impossible
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